Today is my ONE THOUSANDTH day of sobriety. wow.
A little less than 3 years ago I didn't think I would ever get to this point. Not ever. I had no hope that I could stop drinking. My attempts to quit drinking always involved some reward point at which I could start drinking again. When I lose 10 pounds, after three months, When summer time gets here. I was always shooting for some short term goal. I never considered giving up drinking forever until 1000 days ago- from today. 1000 days ago I drank my last drink and probably still drunk- started this blog. I had started other blogs in that drunken haze, crying over my keyboard because I knew my drinking was out of control.
But 1000 days ago I was tired of forgetting, tired of gaining weight, tired of gagging when I brushed my teeth in the morning, tired of hiding my drinking from my husband, tired of losing time with my children, and tired of worrying about how all that poison was ruining my body.
Starting this blog was one of the major things that helped me get through. Seeing that counter everyday was very effective for me. I would never want to have to start that clock over. Not ever.
All I can say is, "Hallelujah!" I relate entirely with each and every slice of misery from which you are now free. Congratulations!
ReplyDeleteCongratulations! A thousand candles to you for this wonderful day. One thousand one-day-at-a-times is a brilliant and beautiful thing.
ReplyDeleteCheers to you!
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You're doing great! Lots of familiar feelings there. I used to think drinking was liberty, but I realize now 13 years on that it was terrible bondage. I take every day at a time, and although I don't exactly fear going back to drink I can't ever take the risk. "The compassions of Jehovah fail not, they are new every morning"- Book Of Lamentations.
ReplyDeleteI'm ever thankful for that, it's the power to keep going.