Then, somewhere along the way I slowed down. The intensity I had when I first got home slowed way down, and lately it's been a challenge to leave the house. Ironically- I feel so much better when I do leave the house. It's a vicious cycle. I don't think my current emotional state has anything to do with my sobriety. If anything, maintaining my sobriety has been one of the main reasons I have managed to get through this time.
I think work will stabilize me a lot. Getting back into a routine of getting up in the morning and going to the gym after work will be a big help.
I am excited and nervous for the change coming up. This job will require travel which causes me some stress because it takes me away from my son. But I will take what I can get right now as this job is a step up in my career. I am happy to be moving forward.
My job saved me when I first got sober. And even after a year and a half sober, just getting out is very important. Isolating and staying home and being bored contributed greatly to my alcoholism. I understand your stress. Wish you the best!
ReplyDeleteThank you Tonya. My husband was being pretty straight forward with me about my need to get back to work. I was so mad at him. But after my first day I have to say - What a relief!! First day went well! Glad to be back out. It's amazing what an early start to your day will do for your psyche.
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