I don’t know how long this feeling will last- but I feel that I have gotten over that hump where everything I think about has to do with drinking. It’s not on my mind so much anymore and not drinking doesn’t feel like a big deal. I’ve gotten a lot of encouragement over the last 4 months telling me that alcohol won’t be on my mind everyday forever. They were right.
I feel really good. Life is going well and I am coping with stress in a healthy manner. I am eating right and exercising. I am doubtful that this feeling will last forever- but it is here now and I am grateful. At this point I know that it is possible to feel this way so if I get to feeling distressed again I will know there is light.
I think there are cravings, and the gaps between get bigger. They have less affect on you as this happens. The tests then, may rise sometimes and you have to face the challenge head on.
ReplyDeleteA wedding, a reunion, a get together with old friends, a funeral. The peace lasts then, until there is a test, and then there is peace again.
So, if you want, there is peace for you always.
Paul
Paul- I think that is why I am so blessed to have a non-drinking spouse. I can't imagine how difficult it must be for those who don't have support at home. Most of his friends don't drink either... when we all go out for a night to watch UFC we are probably the only tables in Hooters that orders water and shirley temples!
ReplyDeleteSo glad to hear you're feeling good. The good days make it worth it... it's hard to believe, but for me the bad days also make it worth it. All of life makes it worth it. ... I'm learning that everything passes, not just the bad times, or the good times, but all the times. I try not to get attached to anything except my own values and behavior.
ReplyDeleteI've enjoyed Shirley Temples since i was a kid! :)
I remember one day realising that I hadn't thought about alcohol for ages. It is so strange considering how important it once was in my life. I think most practicing addicts don't believe that this constant obsession will ever go away but it definitely does.
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