I am so grateful for this three day weekend. I get lots of time to hang out with the hubby. Did the grocery shopping today and ran errands so I get to be a lazy bum (except for homework from the classes I am taking) for the rest of the weekend. Just might try and stay in my pajamas until Tuesday morning!
Main goal for next week- find a gym!
Living away from home is hard- but my husband and I seem to be yin and yang. Whenever i am feeling down he is supportive..and by the time he is feeling down I am able to be strong for him.
I realize that my blogs seem to lack continuity in posts- but that is how my mind is working right now.
I consistently notice commercials about drinking, alcohol, and I am hyper-sensitive to people talking about drinking. I asked my husband if he ever notices and he says he doesn't. Hopefully I am getting closer to that.
It is great that your husband is able to support you when you need it. You are lucky because many addicts lose everyone before they get better. My wife has been great and seems to be almost able to read my mind.
ReplyDeleteI hardly notice bars or advertisements for alcohol anymore. I used to identify songs with my drinking but that doesn't happen so much anymore either. It's strange, when I would visit new places for the first time I'd always notice the bars first of all - this doesn't happen anymore. I visited the States and many other countries during my drinking years and they only thing that I can remember really are the bars - sad.
Try to be kind to yourself, you are doing a great job. Really, and I echo Paul's comments. It does get better. Alcohol has less affect as time passes, it becomes less of a central theme. In essence it fades.
ReplyDeleteI am funny like that I guess, in that I still wear beer T-shirts and I laugh at some of the commercials on TV, and go to bars with friends to catch up.
I don't though, after more than twenty years of addictions, want to get high anymore. My focus has shifted, or my values have changed, I want to be more 'me'.
When it is tough and you have doubts, stay strong. It does get better, try not to put too much pressure on yourself. It must be difficult being away from your husband. Hang in there.
Paul
Thank you both for the vote of confidence. I do have faith that things will get better. I notice with all change comes the thoughts and ideas of drinking. But as time passes and I don't drink I learn that I can enjoy life sober. It's actually a relief to not drink anymore.
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