Monday, February 28, 2011


I am paralyzed by a bout of depression. I don’t know where it came from but I have been laying in this bed for way too long with no desire to get out. Not the “you need your rest” type of laying. I feel debilitated and sad. I have contemplated reasons  for the last several days. There are plenty of reasons for me to feel like this but I make no excuses.

I often wrestle with the prospect of taking anti-depressants again but I like NOT taking them. I like being able to “snap myself out of it”. Usually exercise is a partial anti-depressant but I can’t do that for another couple of weeks. I have a million other ideas as to how to get myself out of this but the blanket of depression is heavy and hard to get out from under.   


  1. sorry to hear this. i too battle depression and it is truly just like a blanket. it will pass - hang on in there.

  2. I personally have been avoiding anti depressants for months. You're in a recovery period on top of a recovery. Are you seeing a therapist? Meditating? Praying? Moving as much as you can?
    I hate to leave the house, avoid it, get panic attacks....but each day I go out somewhere. This has helped me.
    I understand how you're feeling.

  3. Joker- thank you.
    Julie, I am usually very active- I stay so busy I don't have time to think. I am usually a geographic bachelor- meaning I work about 3 hours from my home. So, I rent a place during the week in the city and come home on the weekends. When I am up there I leave my rental at 7am and usually don't get back until 9pm. Since I have had surgery I have been able to stay home for the last two weeks. I guess putting on the breaks in such a huge way has impacted me more than I thought it would. Thank you for your advice.

  4. Hi, it sounds like you are having it tough. The fact that you are talking about must be a help. I'm not qualified to offer advice and anything I’ve got to say you’ve probably heard a million times before. I used to suffer a lot with depression but don’t anymore – I feel that meditation has helped me greatly with this, but apparently this can also exacerbate the symptoms for some people meditating alone. I send you my best wishes anyway.

  5. I sure know that feeling. It was so scary to feel out of control and unable to just think myself or will myself out of depression.

    It seemed so clear, (i'm a bright girl with what I believe is a very strong will) that I should be able to control my mood and emotions.

    I sure know that feeling. (((sigh)))

    I found that really finding and nurturing a spiritual connection helped me.